My path today is overshadowed by storm clouds, both literally and figuratively. It is a gloomy, rainy day here as I struggle with my faith. The doubts creep in darkening my thoughts and dampening my spirit. They're nothing extraordinary or even foreign, but they are there all the same. I miss my husband who's been home no more than 15 days since the year started. I am lonely because I straddle two worlds-- part-time work and stay-at-home mom--and can't really nurture friendships with all the responsibility I carry. I worry about retirement, finances, and the future. I wonder when we are going to get out of this holding pattern and begin living the life we see just out of our grasp. Sometimes it's hard to keep my chin up and carry on. Yet I know that these troubles pale in comparison to the struggles that some are facing and even to some of the other trials God has carried me through in the past. I also know that it is all only temporary-- my emotions are fickle and will soon change. And I know what I need to do. This time I spend alone, I am not really alone. I use these times to talk God about it all. We have nearly all day, and He is faithful.
As I write this, I feel the clouds breaking. I am so excited for tomorrow and Saturday: The Pearl Event! I (and 199 other women) am about to blessed with the beautiful ladies who will open their hearts, offer their love, and share their souls to inspire and encourage us! I am so ready for the hugs, laughter, and squeals of delight to come!
Don't forget to wear your pearls!!
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